Cannot sleep, the death knell sounding in my ear. I hate to admit it but this could be the beginning of the end of my lovely journey with David. I really cannot see him emerging from this unscathed. The saddest thing is he did it to himself. Not that he did anything bad but he just made the worst judgement of his life. I cannot do this anymore. Updating the blog I mean cos it meant I have to read the entertainment news & I don't want to read any more bad news. I don't think I will be able to cope, I can feel all my phobias coming back. I want to be strong for him but I need some time away from this blog. I feel bad that I cannot support him when he needs it most but I promise I will be back. But you know what my dad used to tell me. He said that Chinese are very lucky cos if we did not have a very good beginning to the new year than we have a second chance at Lunar New Year. So let's make a date on 2008/2/7.